Checkmate!: 03/01/2006

Thursday, March 30, 2006

short and sweet.

hm.

TPJC 2-0 HWA CHONG
TEMASEK JC 0-0 NANYANG JC

MERIDIEN 2-3 SAINT ANDREW'S JC

VJC - YJC (postponed)
SRJC 1-3 MILLENIA INSTITUTE

sums up the day.
TPJC soccer is VICTORIOUS!

okay. thats short and sweet. victory is sweet.

now, in my life, i wanna,
study. save. soccer. Ssomething else that starts with S.

i just realised S rocks.
short and sweet both start with s.
S32 also starts with S.
S also starts with S.
ahaha..

takecare all. byee!

Friday, March 24, 2006

woah. these few days in school have been tiring.

new uniform, new class, new shoes, new handphone, new cca, new school?, new life, everything's new! i hope my grades are new too. ahahaha..

ooh. i transferred from 06s09 to 06s32. i like my new class, they are much more fun. ahahaha.. at least they are normal people and i click better with them. so at least i can console myself with a much better class! haha..

actually, tpjc sucks. but the people in tpjc are actually fun. i have new friends, and they are nice people.ahahah.. i actually have nice school mates. haha..

anyway, today on the train, i saw this guy from tpjc. den suddenly, tho we never talked to each other before, he waved to me. wow. how heartwarming to get a wave like that frm a guy whom u've never talked to before. a smile brings a smile to another person. =)

anyway, i really hope i study in my new class. ahaha.. and, i didn know mother tongue was such a troubling thing. til now, im still very troubled by it. nvm.
new school uniform on monday! ahaha..

special day on monday!!!

06s32 is a great class!

Monday, March 20, 2006

6280 come out alr. wah. i wanna buy it man. after that den upgrade to n80 when it comes out. hahaha. 6280 came out 2 or 3 days ago, cant remember. my bday coming soon! ima buy it! im sad, and spending cures sadness! ahahaha

takecare all.
rock on too =)

soccer training ended at 8 plus today. wow am i tired. i am very tired.
i didn get into the a division soccer team. dont feel like elaborating and talking about that right now, sorry abt that. everything's going wrong.

didn get into the team because of some stupid decisions. stupid decisions cause stupid results. just because... just because.. damn it man. i feel depressed with myself. how can a person who has been attacking all his life, go request to go defensive. i dont understand, dont understand. damn.
obviously upset. but what can i do. mourn meh. heh aint gonna do that. im gonna face it like a man. i made the decision i have to deal with it. living with the consequences is very important. i didn get in, and thats it. ima get over it and support tpjc soccer all the way. i will go on in life. i walk on isn it. ahah. tho im really upset, doesn matter. one way i could have been holding a high position in the team, another i couldn even get myself in with a lacklustre performance. damn it. not gonna brood. not gonna be sad. just going to live on.

its not the feeling of not being able to make it that im sad over,
its the feeling that u know u can make it and will make it, but in the end u didn.

moral of the story, try hard and do ur best in whatevr u wanna pursue, no matter how hard it may be. set ur mind and work hard towards it. dont work hard for sth u dont want just to get sth u want. aiya, hard to explain, hard to understand also. just, work hard for whatever suits u best, and whatever u wanna achieve. dont work hard for sth that doesn suit u but u know u can make it, just to get sth u want. u'd rather try ur best for the thing that suits u, cos if u do ur best and if ure good enough, u'll make it. yes. thats what i wanna say.

watch me next year. i'll make it. i have to.
next yr chiong ah. set.

takecare!
ey daniel looks nice in vjc uniform. ahahahaha.. seh!

tpjc soccer! go!
some of the teams we're gonna meet starting 30th march,
hwa chong institute, meridien junior college, saint andrews junior college, temasek junior college, nanyang junior college.
pls go support the tpjc soccer team @ the tpjc soccer field when there's a match.

thankyou! takecare

Friday, March 17, 2006

whey

today tpjc played ova. some old man team. damn man we lost 5-3. its sian. for the fact that the stronger team played well. we could have won, if they didn field inexperienced juniors like us. its damn sian. i played quite badly. did not impress or whatsoever. played not up to standard i think. fitness was nowhere to be seen. and i was handed the rightback slot. wtf? nvm. i think i wont get into a div final 25 team. i think most j1s wont. the fitness aint thr. except for a few good ones lah. after a div, im gonna tell coach i wanna play as a forward and only a forward. i cant play where i want to play right now! oh ya. did i mention, the j2 striker and j2 rightback is pro. really good. ahaha. the j2 leftwinger is notbad as well. oh well. wish them all the best for a division.
their jersey's gonna be really nice. =( nvm, there's next yr? lol..

tpjc soccer a division boys. first match is HWA CHONG INSTITUTION. =D

did i mention that my tpjc soccer training jersey, my number is 1. LOL

takecare

oh. im in 06s09. hmmm..

Monday, March 13, 2006

just got a scolding from my dad. alright, it wasn really a scolding, he talked to me for my goood. even though he really made alot of sense, i didn really feel good.

today is a day to remember. its my good if i can pick myself up and listen to what he told me. it is a blessing. then again, i hope i am awaken, and i hope i have awoken from my slumber. i must and i will study hard. i must not let myself and my parents down. when i promised what i promised, i really thought i could do it. damn it. i must wake up. i must show that i can do it because i can. and i will.

studies. soccer. nothing else. i hope.

takecare..
chill time!

Friday, March 10, 2006

ahahaha.

yay!

i got into tpjc soccer again. after trials again! its very fun okay. ahahaha.. okay nvm. dunno leh, maybe i dont wanna join soccer. but i wanna play soccer! and since i got in again, maybe just join lah. since alrd aft first 3 mths. if i stay in tpjc, den i join soccer. hahaha. the trials started with 22 pple. den cut to 13.. den cut to 8. so sad.. tai kin lung didn get in! wtf? he slack! hahaha..
damn sian. okay fine im overreacting. ahaha..

yay. tpjc soccer is fun.

hmm. go arts for wad? dont want lah i want science. go choir for wad? somemore that choir i got no friends at all. den can only reach home at 8 cos mj lessons end arnd 5? wtf. sian lah! i dont think ima go sa den. so sad!

lucid vapor rocks man. they are improving. they are good! they are hard rockers!! hahaha.. hanloong guest singer. lard samuel james gongkia ruiyi hanloong! LV ROCKS MAN. hahaha james, ure good la! u are damn pro man. pro drummer. keep it up!
support local music. made in singapore!!

takecare.. chill time.. =)

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

hello..

im tired.. really tired. tired of thinking, tired of deciding, tired of handling matters like these.

okay. i passed sajc choir auditions.. heh.. waiting for a call within from today til friday. im not accepted into sajc yet. they will call me to tell me if im accepted or rejected. anyway, the choir teacher was quite happy that i passed the auditions. but den again, i think i did badly. even tho i passed the auditions, i still think i did badly because i didn exactly perform v well for the thing. so yeah. even tho i passed the auditions, i aint exactly feeling very good. i feel.. ..

hai. so sian..

tpjc orientation. ahah..
im starting to notice.

Monday, March 06, 2006

ohman. how boring can TPJC orientation get.
5days of pure lectures, talks and blah. no games, no orientation night.
ima crash tjc orientation night. haha.. maybe.

just got a cut above my eye after playing soccer.
seriously, sometimes muds just suddenly start laughing to themselves on streetsoccer courts u wonder if its really that funny. haha..

thanks mum! thanks so much! i love you! =D
thanks you teacher for ur testi. i appreciate it. THANK YOU!

ok i wonder why i got the testimonial anyway. is my road really set out to be this way?
is my life destined? why why why.
i dont know!! i dont wanna think!!
i just wanna walk the life that has been presented to me, but now a new road has appeared, and i dont wanna choose! no way. no way. i dont have a choice.
wow i seem to be like talking to myself. like as tho i have two sides of myself, and one side is talking to the other.
congrats i screwed my life up this way i dont know how to handle it.
i feeling troubled and vexed!

disinterested in love. love spoils friendship..
why did i say that? did i mean it..
i dont know..
so sad..

takecare..

TPJC is the best?
we'll see how tmrw.
time is 5pm, day is tuesday, place is ..
no no. i dotnknow!

Saturday, March 04, 2006

whoa. tmrw is TPJC orientation2. how boring can it get. i wonder. i dont even know my orientation group. hmm. i wonder.

i hope my mum's health stays as healthy as it can get. i really dont want her to have any health problems. i hope that she will see a doctor whenever she is sick or ill. takecare mum! please bless my mum, please let her have the best health on earth. same to my dad! takecare!

uh. i wonder. i haven emailed the mjc choir tcher as i was supposed to. to schedule a audition or sth like that. they say its hard to appeal into mjc with soccer. that day i saw this tiny kid wanting to appeal into mjc with soccer. damn funny. lol. anyway, should i appeal mjc? or should i appeal sajc? or should i not appeal at all. damn it someone save me. i dont think i have a choice. aiya. fudzzy wudzzy.

anyway. how i wished i was in tjc right from the start. if only i had studied a lil harder for prelims. and also if only i had studied a lil harder for o'levels. everything would be so fine. it was all my fault. i am to blame for all. damn it.
i would be disappointing much less pple now. i would not have disappointed my parents as a result. damn! 10 or better seems so common now for o'levels, and i failed my parents. i must not fail again at a'levels! damn im depressed with myself..

anyway, in memory of a ex-dunmanian who ended his life sorrowfully.
a young and promising talent gone. a pity.
r.i.p. suicide was never an option.

takecare all..

whoa. i found this really meaningful. =)

I wish I didn't have to study so hard. I see no life in pursuing academia. I see a life in pursuing happiness. Even if I major in fun, I will be happy in life. no one will stop me. nothing will stop me.

Live with a smile, make it all worthwhile.

That sentence has insurmountable meaning for me. Make it all worthwhile. just hearing it nearly made me tear. I know I'm kinda affected by words cause I believe they can have incredibly powerful motivation, but that was unexpected, to say the least.

Yes, I'll make it all worthwhile. I'll make my life worthwhile. I won't fail in that. To fail would be to fail in life. No way.

Wants:
To know the meaning of this life.

This Life is full of currents, which we the fishes feel, and have to choose, to drift- or swim upstream to what is real.

woah. ns. nice one nice one.
=)

chill guys. i tellyou, promG rocks all the way...

lazy to blog nowadays.
but im still making an effort anyway.

these few days, can be summarised as depressing. very depressing. just only a few days ago, my cousin escaped a near death accident. for those who know my bad boy cousin, its not him. its my mother's side the cousin who is over 20 plus years old already. she has a kid alrd somemore. cute chloe. anyway, she was involved in an accident. a car rammed into the car she was in. the whole car was in ruins, and she was bruised. she waslucky to escape with only bruises, as if the car had only gone a little faster, the car would have crashed right into the door where she was sitting beside. imagine that when the car had rammed into the front part of her car, the engine and the whole front part of the car was in ruins, totally crushed. try to imagine what would have happened if my cousin had drove faster. i would want to even think about it man. yes, depressing.

next up, my cousin. yes, the bad boy cousin. i wonder man. whats he doing with his life. he is fun to be with la. but, quit smoking and study hard la. dont live off soccer and pool and lan, study a lil bit more and dont fight so much la biatch. ahaha. kidding.

we received a piece of news today. while chilling at parkway. i had barely reached hotshots where they were chilling at, and the first piece of news i heard was damn depressing alrd. heard that a guy who was from dunman, ex dunmanian which means, had committed suicide. they told me it was johnathan's senior. from co one. percussions also. my first thought was it must be the damn smart one, but soccer also quite good one. and yes, its him. i was shocked. i mean, the promG pple in vjc still see him often. and then just like that, he committed suicide. the reason remains a mystery. ohmy, damn i was depressed. a life gone just like that, and a young promising talent gone. like what the, seriously, its darn depressing.

what a depressing week. yes. im in TPJC. heh. i think the teachers will hound me man. i dont know lah. i think im screwed. lol. anyway, got this choir audition thing this tues evening. sajc choir teacher wants me to join their choir man. which means, my chances of appealing into sajc via choir is actually quite high. i think i will get accepted if i pass the audition, or even if i just go. wtf. anyway, i dontknow if im going. ahah. yes i handed in the appeal forms for MJC and SAJC. but aiya, i think im too lazy to bother about everything or even anything. depressing man. i wanna go TJC. but haiya. dont care alrd la. i feel seriously depressed with myself. i wonder why i didn study hard enough. i mean, everyone who did badly must be pissed with themselves. but i think what i did was unacceptable, very unacceptable. i didn even pass my higherchinese. what the hell. my chinese standard is supposed to be good. ahahaha ahem. anyway, i really think i let my parents down. esp my mum. when she realised how deep i am in trouble cos im in tpjc and she heard i got chance to go sajc with choir, she immediately took out 20 bucks ask me take cab down to sajc. actually didn wanna get tied down by choir, but seeing her dedicating so much just for me, makes me really guilty. i will join choir. i will not disappoint her again. we'll see. im still very lazy.

ima get my ipod video. ahaha. no link. anyway, im really depressed with myself for not studying hard enough for o'levels. cos, its like single digit is actually easy to get if u study hard enough. of cos not talking abt the pple who suay suay get 10, i feel sorry for u all. cheer up ok. im still sad with myself for not studying hard enough. i feel bad. i disappoint my parents, and i made them sad. all because i nv did study hard enough for o'levels. they treat me so well, yet this is how i repay them? what the hell. i feel sad for myself partly because i didn study hard enough. but even more because after what my parents did for me, i still disappoint me like that. how depressing can life get. why does life have to turn out like that.
i must do well for a'levels. i must take action!!

watch this space __________ whatever will be, will be.
how depressing can life get. wow.

Checkmate!