Tuesday, August 22, 2006

asked a question, set me thinking.
what i saw, what was asked
looked at it, thought to myself.
set me thinking again.
salvation is freeeeeeeeeee

now i dont feel well, i dont feel comfortable.
im going to bed

whats worth a mention? whats worth
whats inside of me that i wanna say but i cant or rather i dont know how?
whats piling up inside me, where are all the answers to the questions,
whats brooding over all about.
why think so much,
how do i find the problem

whats wrong with me

posted by KIMKEAT @ 8:19 AM

this goes out to all those out there , trying hard to battle all the exams and facing many not-too-good moments in their lifes. c'mon, cheer up, life isn that bad.

even tho life might at times seem like it deserts you(technically impossible how can your life leave you? HAHA ok thats not the point), leaves you in a lurch or even render you helpless stressed, frustrated, pissed off, think about all the times you would smile.
think about life after all the exams, where you can finally chill, where you can take a break, and even tho life might seem to be neverendingly tiring, stressful, just relax and well, just do what you can.

when life seems to desert upon you and leave you in despair, just remember, if you are able to be reading this, i will always be someone here you can turn to. yes, always. =)

to all, smile!
be happy doing what you are doing or have to do,
and just, simply try to make the best possible out of it.

posted by KIMKEAT @ 7:17 AM

#1
in this magical world, of endless hopes, pointless sacrifices, living denial and crippling reality,
its you who must bring your own life up.

isnt it weird how we arent cherishing our life the way we should be,
complaining at every slightest bit,
when we ourselves haven even gone through what they really call,
pain.

just a 2.4km and u complain, when they run miles and miles, not cause they have to, but because they want to and they will.
just a slight misdemeanour and you complain, when they are born without a choice, and life hits them hard with cruelty at its worst and unfairness tears them apart.

respect. indeed a hero

what are we doing with our lucky and dear lives, when others yearn for one? they probably didn have a choice, while we are probably screwing up our choices.
life is indeed unfair. heh
he who doesn have to, wants to do it

#2

in this life overshadowed by changes in life, some changes happen too rapidly for us to even adapt to it.

no doubt changes are uncontrollable, be it good or bad, it is just sad at how some have changed. you dont even know them for who they were anymore. you dont even know who they are anymore. its just sad. change is good. oh really? tell me about it.
sometimes it makes you just think how they have managed to changed to become like that, and if you will suffer the same fate.
do i want to stay the way i am? or change is actually better? to erase and replace? NO. you live the way you want to live and live with no regrets, like they say everything happens for a reason? like what im doing now is due to me wasting time? thats a reason. HAHA

takecare all

posted by KIMKEAT @ 6:55 AM

Friday, August 18, 2006

can you stone and stare at nothing, suddenly proclaim, yes i've lived my life to the fullest and its valuable to me with all its memories i will hold on to and never let them go,

or will you just stone and stare at nothing and cry
because life is all too tired and it continues being so tiring you want to live life your own way but you cant because of certain limitations

yes, be a man, dont always do the right thing to follow by the rules

will you , stand by me?
yr my only belief

live it, look back, and smile.
bring yrself there



have you ever felt so sad, because you know you can do better but somehow you dont, and that feeling really sucks. knowing you can do it but not doing it.
i always feel it.

posted by KIMKEAT @ 7:50 AM

if i told you, i felt that everything was linked in a way or another, would you listen to me. well, i feel that way. some way or another, be it karma or whatsoever, its comes and goes all around.

my mood was brought down, just. im all alone at home, with nothing to do. i stared at my phone, in its despaired state, it was being tore apart. its sad, damn it. so what if i got other phones, its just sad. i lost a phone a week or two ago and i tore one apart just today. whats my problem. hur

i just went to tpjc.net, heron isn leading the house points anymore. its second now, all because we, no ME, lost the interhouse soccer thing. i should never have captained the heron team if i knew i was going to underperform and do a bad job eh. at least i stood up and i admit its my fault. its not just about win or loss, its more about ego. the heron team is too full of themselves sometimes, no offence, and i cant control it. its not childish to let this affect me because even tho its just another minor tournament its not just another minor tournament. get it. its not just about that, imagine how the whole heron house affected just because 7 people on the field just gave it all away, and u happen to be the guy who orchestrates it all. how would you feel, its not just a game. dont play it if u cant afford the consequences, your mood just goes way down. im all tired now as well. school work sucks
im sorry heron.
and you had to rub it in. thanks, i know


im going to screw up econs tomorrow, i cant finish an essay in a hour lah, even if i have all the vital information. who cares

takcare all, smile

posted by KIMKEAT @ 7:42 AM

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

=)

posted by KIMKEAT @ 10:29 AM

i got nth to type lar,
dont wanna make myself sound like such an emokid again.

then again, a blog is supposed to let me vent all i want, im just lazy, thats an excuse and i know it.

there's nothing for me to blog about lar, its all those same usual stuffs that i talk about. its usually sad and stupid stuffs, so i dont think its worth a mention. as usual, family problems, friendship problems, school work and stuffs like that, make me sad and down my mood. totally dont even have the mood at all when im in school, just feel outright wasted and feel like stoning away the whole day. and family problems doesn necessarily mean quarrelling or arguing with ur family, it can be like when your family has done so much for you, you know it and you appreciate it but yet you cannot live up to expectations and totally have no motivation to do even a simple thing called study and end up being a kid who disappoints his parents. whereby your parents have done so much for you and then expect so little, just ask you to study, yet u waste your life away cause you're just plain lazy and blatantly ignorant, not saying they expect alot, just that i know i can do better, alot better in all aspects of my studies if i just put in the effort to. not saying tpjc is a lousy school, but i know i can do better than that and sometimes when you think about it, its the disappointment that you do not dare to face, life isn that simple after all. you do something, yet you dont have the courage to face the disappointment that you YOURSELF cause. i wonder why. and frankly speaking, tpjc is quite bad, as a school itself, it really is quite bad. fun but quite bad, what to do. aiya, elaborate also no use, shall just stop here. so many things to say, so hard to explain, so tired of mentioning them when nobody would understand what words will mean. so many problems, face it simply? face it head on? how to, teach me and i'll learn. school , family , friends. which one comes first.

get what i mean?

why must this make me waste my whole damn life away.

takecare everyone

:life is simple,
you make a choice,
and you dont look back.

really?

posted by KIMKEAT @ 10:19 AM

Thursday, August 03, 2006

hey.

havent been online in awhile, i've been really busy. this week's hectic yet again, im beginning to worry for my studies.
as i have said, life hasnt been too kind to me. good things happen every now and then, like, seeing her, no A smile every now and then that makes me smile back, having time off to relax with my friends. but then again, its not always that nice. they say 10% of life is impeccable, it happens comes and goes, but how you react determines the remaining 90% of your life. i think i got a very bad 10%. damn.

tpjc is getting on my nerves, really. i dont really like it, i dont know if i hate it. AH. LIFE.

here's a summary of what i can remember.
monday had our first softball game, is it? i cant reall rmb, anyway we won the other team 18-1. i think i suck at softball. ah whatever.

tuesday had testimonial match for the soccer team. its year 1s vs year2s. the match ended in a 2-2 draw. apparently the seniors werent very happy with nordin and the ref, but generally we played well lah. i think we played quite well to be able to draw with them. it was scary tho, the year2 captain blew off and got sent off for rambling alot ALOT of bad words at the ref. i think he's cool tho. nvm, there was alot of tension, tho alvin chin was still like joking with me during the match. hahaha whatever, he oled me man. it was scary, the year2s didn sound happy after the match. anyway, i was quite surprised im in the starting lineup. i wore specs there didn expecting to play and i was damn shocked to be included in the starting lineup. had to play without specs, the even more alarming thing is i didn get subbed off. i played the whole match, 90 mins. it was damn tiring lah. i dont know why he let me play a whole game. anyway i hope i played well, i wanna continue to improve.

ystd i lost my phone. damn it lah. i dont wanna talk about it anymore. drop that. i can use my mum's phone or my sister's spare phone but i wanna go a few days without a phone. experience it or sth. i think im lame, heh. i dont think i wanna buy a new phone, i dont know why, im lazy to tell my parents. and when they asked if i wanted to, i was in a bad mood and i bluntly replied NO THANKS. i think i regret now. nvm, maybe just use a whatever phone. i dont need a phone anyway, if not to message i think i can live without a phone. nvm, u dont get what i mean.
played the softball matches in the afternoon, we thrashed a team before getting thrashed by another team. we still qualified for the top 4 spots though. so proud of my team. thats all, i dont feel like elaborating anymore.

in a time where so many people are facing problems, where life's so sad and everyone thinks everything's tumbling down somehow, i hope all of them cheer up and smile! only they can bring a smile back to their lives.
i have so much to say but i dont feel like saying lah, words dont mean anything.
im facing so many things now, trying to take it all in my stride head on but i realise sooner or later im gonna blow man, i will just break down and fade away. there is so many things to attend to, there is so many problems in life! not that im the only one, but, ah, life can never be like last time, life is just so sad! i want to clear my mind, take it all away, i dont want to think about them! i sound so emotional.

to everyone facing a period of depression in their lives, cheer up, life can only get better. smile!

dont worry, im beginning to hate tpjc as well.

takecare everybody.

posted by KIMKEAT @ 4:56 AM