Checkmate!: 08/01/2007

Thursday, August 30, 2007

yayy
HOLIDAYY.
haha mine has already started. self claimed.
actually its nth good, it means down to studying.
damn.

anyway, some guy(s) decided to prank our school field,
seeing that maybe because its gonna be torn apart come first of sept already,
by spraying the initials S.O.S.
haha its really funny,
cos it stands for Save Our Soccer.
hahaha

sometimes i really wonder,
why we would rather choose to blame others
and put the blame on them,
rather than think that its our fault actually,
and think why have we made that mistake.
hah ironic.

ystd the moon was really really bright and round,
so nice!
random, but, do you know what the number eleven actually means?

and and. hahaha
godsis dont quit. dont give up.
im getting ranted at by my parents too.
sometimes it gets really irritating and
brings you down,
but i guess,
thats life.

studyyyyyy

Monday, August 27, 2007

i forgot what i wanted to say.
next week is holidays again, and i guess, its going to be study real hard week if not im gonna regret again. heh.

anyway, i think i might consider taking an early holiday, heh thats because, pointless to go to school anyway and i think i really need it. i think.

all i can say is,
im really sorry.
it takes reall courage to do alot of things.
and for some, i lack. im sorry.

there's smth for you at the place we always used to pass things.
or rather. i always used to pass things to you. yup.

comeon, mug really hard.
ill try.

i've got so much to say,
so much on my mind.
but i wont say it anyway.

sorrry.
and i guess.
im not -.

Saturday, August 25, 2007

i was enlightened yday, about betting.
you want to bet, you must be ready to lose. and it seems with that attitude i stopped my losing streak cos i got a fair result yesterday. cool.
anyway i dont give a damn abt it anymore, after i bet i lose or win, dont matter.
its just abit of cash anyway.

life's like that, you win some, you lose some.

i dont understand sometimes,
'why when im obviously not happy i try and act like i am.
am i or am i not?
i really got no clue.
its the same as i dont really understand why sometimes i want to make a turn and go left,
but i just simply force myself to go right.

sometimes i really cant take it anymore as well,
i really wanna do smth good abt it,
but everytime i think,
as long as we are happy it'll be fine.
and since you are,
so be it.

so many so many so many others out there

life's like that.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams

portugal please please please score at least 6 goals please!

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

muggin's been good lately,
it keeps your mind busy,
and if i dont do it now,
im afraid,
im gonna regret.

its down to 35%.
evryday it goes down and down.

hah anyway,
it doesnt really matter.

would you like some candies/sweets?
its free anyway.
heh

;only you would know what im talking about.

hey, you there, you look lovely,
do i know you//

Saturday, August 18, 2007

haha,
certainly isnt a sure thing.
thats for sure.

whats real or not,
only you would know it yourself,
wouldnt it?

i guess,
for all the wrong reasons,
lets say; cheers!

hah
from 1000% to 100% to 85% to 70% to 55% and now 40%
dont make me lose that quarter i got,
please?

you all,
are
fucking selfish.
all of you.

maybe i am too. HAH

Thursday, August 16, 2007

im sorry.

Saturday, August 11, 2007

the eleventhhhh is gone,
as quickly as it came,
its gone, went away.

theres smth i never ever said,
since then,
it turned blind.

not talking abt it
might be good
might be bad
depends on how you see it.

but yeah i dont mind
not knowing anything
or giving up everything
its just quite sad.
just like standing on two ends of a bridge.

cos nothing else matters
just. keep. running.

im just sorry it had to end this way.
no i mean.
im sorry i have to start doing things
THIS way.
sighsighsigh

just resolve this.
even if its the hard way.

Said I´d move on and I’d leave it alone
But before I walk out there is something that I need you to know
I got lost in the blink of an eye
And I could never get back, no I never got back …

You were not there when I wanted to say
That you were everything right
And it wasn’t you who need to change
Now I gotta go it alone
But I will never give up, no I’ll never give up.

What am I fighting for?
There must be something more
For all these words I sing
Do you feel anything?

Said “I’m ok”, but I know how to lie
You were all that I had
You were delicate and hard to find
Got lost in the back of my mind
And I could never get back, no I never got back

You were not there when I needed to say
I hit the bottom so fast
That my head was spinning ‘round for days
Now I gotta go it alone But I will never give up…
No I’ll never give up…

What am I fighting for?
There must be something more.
I’m gonna stay here while I wait for you to come around
I’ll fight, you’re a part of me now

or is there?

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

not that i wanted it to ,
but the damage had already been done.

happy birthday singapore!

of cos, happy birthday to alex and happy belated to fatcattttt

Sunday, August 05, 2007

7-a-side tournament.
the most ironic thing of all,
i was the one who wanted to play with them so much,
yet i was the one who lost my mood before the game.
if i had scored, we would have gone through.

its not the feeling of missing.
its that feeling,
if you give me another chance right now things would have been different.
its that feeling.
what the fuck was going through my mind man.
-you.

i missed a penalty.
in the shootout.
enough said.

fuck lah.

Friday, August 03, 2007

as it approaches the ground floor, i moved away. without a doubt, she gets out, the right lift, as she walks away with a little white bag over her shoulders, phone in her hands. slowly but surely she leaves, following along. the urge of just calling out her name is so much, but i stand watching from afar, as if nothing can come out of my mouth and my hands not moving to do anything. at last, obviously she is gone, and i walk slowly to where she came from. the scent is so obvious, its so strong, and smells so sweet, i laugh lightly to myself,
am i stupid?

hah thanks anyway. its nice, pretty good. =)
which one is more worth it, it or the twoandahalf hours i took.
i dont know.

there's so much on my mind i dont know how to handle.
yet sometimes,
i just dont understand.

-11

i was on my way home just now,
and then i started to think abt some stuffs.
not that i havent been thinking these few days,
but its just that,
i havent found a right way to handle everything.

i used to have this very good band of brothers last time.
we were close, really close.
somehow, maybe its just me,
havent seen them for quite some time.
and i just want to say,
i still think of you guys everyday,
how each one of you out there is doing now.
maybe its my fault,
i used to think some other things were bigger than what was there,
im sorry,
if i didn make more effort than i should.
i just want to say
you guys were the best,
and still will be.
hope to see you soon all the best all of you.

man, i suddenly feel,
i owe so many people apologies.

anw, that issue's an end.
nth more to say nth more to add on.
lets just pretend nth happened.

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

im getting scoldings right left centre inside outside downtown uptown everywhere anywhere.
home comp msges calls msn blogs.

this is kickass fun man.
hur

well just can say im sorry.
myfault.
end.

yeah thats it thats it.
slowly slowly, lets just float awayyyy.

last time i used to be the one to compromise,
lets see what happens when i dont.
lets try upset the cycle a little.

i've been sleeping early these few days.
or so force myself to.
and math.
math is good.

it sure was a sinful friday. ha.

ANYWAY. hahaha things are getting interesting.
lets see. it didn have to turn out this way.
yet you let it continue, and now more is coming.
obviously right from the start since dont know anything,
should not have anyhow. now you see.
hah its not gonna stop.
why? scared say alr angry ah. hah.

thank you thank you. im glad i made you amazed. =)
and yah. i agree,
she is indeed so nice and wonderful, really.
she doesnt always SAY she is there for me always,
she IS.
but i dont think we're a perfect match, im sorry to disagree on that.
my feelings are for someone else.

but anyhow. thanks for your concern. =)

hah, as if you know whats really going on now.
AND hey.
i thought you said you wanted to,
uhm,
make sure ,
IM NOTHING AT ALL? NOTHING TO HER?
what happened?
HAH i wait to see.
BRING IT ON.

of cos choices have consequences.
choices determine who you become and what you become. hah

Checkmate!